I MISS......

I MISS the people i thought were my friends

I MISS the person i used to be

I MISS the faith i had and the love for a higher power

I MISS a love i once shared with another

I MISS how it felt to not be stressed

I MISS when i didnt know what it was to lose someone to death

I MISS when i used to dream and thought it actually would come true

I WISH  i could change choices ive made

I WISH i showed more love to family

I WISH i could take back things ive said or have said things when i didnt

I WISH i could feel beautiful inside and out

I WISH i could become famous and excell in my career

I WISH i could find someone someday who will love me  

I DONT understand church

I DONT understand people

I DONT want to grow up

I DONT want to alone

I DONT understand why i feel like ill will never be loved

I DONT want to be sad for the rest of my life

I DONT want to see people i love die

I DONT understand me

I DONT understand GOD

i want everything out of life but will it ever happen when all this  is stopping me ?

hi everyone im chillin at jenns new appt yeah !!!! and thought id update i quite my job and got a new one way better called wyred and we open feb 3rd im so excited yeah. its located in dtw down town willoughby its so cool inside too very contemporary. i hope itworks out !!!!!

so being single is driving me nucking futs ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. now everyone seems to be hooking up except me .....why who knows so its the dreaded boyfriend syndrome where im either a 3rd wheel or i dont see my friends . oh and poor raches car is broke so i dont get to see her either!!!!

well im off for now bye to you all i love ya

muah*

well well its been quite sometime and lots of shit has gone down. yeah david is dating the most unlikely person ever! and yes i know but it still bothers me because of who it is and to top it off she dated his older brother like 3 yrs ago .....so fucking sick!!!!!!!!!!  they all make me want to puke.

so jenn is home now and im so excited b/c i have MY BEST BUD BACK AND CAN TALK TO HER ANY TIME!!!!!i was going crazy not having someone who really cared about me around. everyone else has been getting on my nerves lately and fucking me over even the band yes the guys who i said never would and that i totally trusted oh and lets not forget the fat joke they made about me right in front of me !!!shit stinks when people joke like that i dont care how it was meant im not a huge elephant or anything but my weight bothers me and they know that oh and to top it they havent called or talked to me in over a month so much for friendship. these days its hard almost impossible to know who your true friends are.......well enough of negative shit as i was saying  jenns back ...yeah and we packed her up and were moving her out tomarrow,oh and she is engaged to mike of course. well i had somr deep sentimental venting shit to say but ill save it for next time i need to vent off some lyrics about david b/c i neeed to get over thios ass and i know i truely wont til i meet someone else so im just going to have to settle for this somehow i wish he found this site and read my journal to truley know how i feel b/c he doesnt know and that bothers me and that goes for the rest of them too i wish they all read this and new the way i felt and then maybe i wouldnt be so obssessed and insane abotu all this shit and what they have done david mary monica shaun william, you all need a serious wake up call your shit stinks and you cant hide it forever people know your sneaky ways and shits gonna blow up in ur face.

good night to you all sweet dreams xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxox

shlee

okay so right now there are all these little kids at my house being really loud and i stayed home to catch up on some sleep but it looks like it wont happen im to stressed out to put up with this shit and im crying b/c im listening to sad love songs like endless love and i will be waiting right here for you.god my love life sucks and alsonot to mention the rest of my life to.i wish some  johnny depp ewan mcgregor  guy would come and take me away from all this shit! 

(fefe dobason)

 i was waiting all my life to meet someone like you and now im stairing in your eyes trying to learn all about you and in my mind it comes so easily but its not...wouldnt it be good if we could be together     take me away ,take me far away from here i will run with you i wont be afraid navigate my dreams b/c i will run we will run ....well im my words sorta>

but i guess like everyone tells me i gotta stay strong so to all of you who told me heres one for you .....im every woman, its all in me!!!!!!!!!

 but again its me and i feel like staci oricio ......what is all this i feel like im missing ,theres gotta be more to life than just about every temporary highs to satisfy me cause the more that i keep trippin on thinkin there must be more to life!?

okay nowi just went upstairs toget my purse and shit my 50 dollars from work is missing what the fuck i fucking hate my life why me ahhh those kids better noty of took it all hell is gonna break loose welll bye guys

okay so right now there are all these little kids at my house being really loud and i stayed home to catch up on some sleep but it looks like it wont happen im to stressed out to put up with this shit and im crying b/c im listening to sad love songs like endless love and i will be waiting right here for you.god my love life sucks and alsonot to mention the rest of my life to.i wish some  johnny depp ewan mcgregor  guy would come and take me away from all this shit! 

(fefe dobason)

 i was waiting all my life to meet someone like you and now im stairing in your eyes trying to learn all about you and in my mind it comes so easily but its not...wouldnt it be good if we could be together     take me away ,take me far away from here i will run with you i wont be afraid navigate my dreams b/c i will run we will run ....well im my words sorta>

but i guess like everyone tells me i gotta stay strong so to all of you who told me heres one for you .....im every woman, its all in me!!!!!!!!!

 but again its me and i feel like staci oricio ......what is all this i feel like im missing ,theres gotta be more to life than just about every temporary highs to satisfy me cause the more that i keep trippin on thinkin there must be more to life!?

okay nowi just went upstairs toget my purse and shit my 50 dollars from work is missing what the fuck i fucking hate my life why me ahhh those kids better noty of took it all hell is gonna break loose welll bye guys